So my therapist suggested I not date for a while. He suggested that until I reestablish a good contact with my father I take a break. Even from liking guys. I thought to myself, ha ha thats funny. But after last night, I think I will try his advice. The whole not dating thing I mean, I need to get grad school over with before I try things with my dad again. Mostly because, well I know he sucks a lot out of me, and I feel really burnt out from school as it is.
So this date, I had a bad feeling about it. The guy was a lot older than I care to date first of all, almost 38. But he seemed nice, but then again he didn't. It was quite complicated. I vented all of the details to the BFF last night. I really don't feel like I can even vent anymore. And I really hope he doesnt contact me ever again. Like ever.
I would delete his number from my phone, however I want to know its him so I don't text him back or answer the phone if he calls.
I should go back to work now..Although for the life of me. I don't know. I'm just so tired..
And I really miss two of my friends. I really messed up and I don't know how to fix it. Someone just pray that I can find peace. Cause right now that is what I am craving.