So my therapist suggested I not date for a while. He suggested that until I reestablish a good contact with my father I take a break. Even from liking guys. I thought to myself, ha ha thats funny. But after last night, I think I will try his advice. The whole not dating thing I mean, I need to get grad school over with before I try things with my dad again. Mostly because, well I know he sucks a lot out of me, and I feel really burnt out from school as it is.
So this date, I had a bad feeling about it. The guy was a lot older than I care to date first of all, almost 38. But he seemed nice, but then again he didn't. It was quite complicated. I vented all of the details to the BFF last night. I really don't feel like I can even vent anymore. And I really hope he doesnt contact me ever again. Like ever.
I would delete his number from my phone, however I want to know its him so I don't text him back or answer the phone if he calls.
I should go back to work now..Although for the life of me. I don't know. I'm just so tired..
And I really miss two of my friends. I really messed up and I don't know how to fix it. Someone just pray that I can find peace. Cause right now that is what I am craving.
I"ll be praying for you! Are they two of your NY friends or cali friends? Not that it really matters, a friend is still a friend. Sorry to hear about your bad date; we all have them from time to time.
ReplyDeleteHey sweetie! I miss you too, and sadly I'm gonna be too busy this week to call you... unless it's in the middle of my work day, which at this rate would be fine by me... lol! But let me know if you need to talk, and I'll make the time! Love you!
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